Like others said, anti anxiety meds, avoid the internet. Also, get yourself a musical instrument and dive into creativity. You won’t be sad that you did that.

I’d hate to have to tell your ghost that a week after you died there was a plane crash that changed everything or something.

You don’t know what’s going to happen and I promise you, you’ll die eventually if you just hang in there.

If I had pulled the trigger when I wanted to in 2017, I would have missed the most wonderful time of my life so far and by a long shot.

I still have the only gun I’ve ever owned. I’m probably gonna bury that bad boy soon, give it a little grave. Can’t sell it, it’s one of the worst reviewed firearms made in the last 40 years and no one who cares would dream of buying it.

Good luck.

I did it on starryai. I don’t think you can use it without an account these days though.

I made a lot of Donald and Putin porn to shock the local magats. I never posted it, just showed them on my phone.

Turns out that if you use some languages other than English, even the shittiest AI wouldn’t filter out the words haha.

Доналд Трамп Путиннің пенисіне микрофон сияқты ән айтады

I feel you. I pretty much exclusively play 80s and 90s games.

You want some fun that is modern, somehow ancient, and beautiful? Oh, and challenging, but if you persist it is very rewarding?

Cuphead. I fucking love that game. I play it and replay it and play it some more. I have waaaaaay too many hours in that game on Steam and on Switch. I think it’s the only game I ever got all achievements on.

Man, I don’t even know if I could sit down and count the folks that I knew personally who died from Covid. Shit was crazy.

This dude was just totally disconnected. “It wuh twentwenny. That when uhlecshun, duh!”

Yes, at the eeeeeennnnnnnd of 2020, buddy.

And folks just call it fake. Isn’t that neat?

My brother’s former employer (Jim Justice, current governor of West Virginia) once laid off nearly everyone in the mine he worked at. With their last paycheck was a letter, (paraphrasing) “If Barack Obama is elected, we may never return to work.”

I took it as, “Well, vote Republican or we aren’t opening the mines back up and you won’t have a job.”

Wasn’t long after Obama won that they called most of them back.

It’s crazy how often my brother and his coworkers had to chase their paychecks too. Justice is known locally for stiffing his workers, yet somehow he’s qualified to govern the state. Beats me man. I need to look at the election results and see how many people voted for him in towns where he employs people. It would shock me if he got a significant post job of the vote in those towns given his reputation.

Before he was governor I only ever heard his name in a negative light.

If I worked at Apple, I’d hire you right here, right now.

Man I love this.

As a musician I used to say, “Leonard Cohen began his music career in his 30s. I can do this.”

I’m not Leonard Cohen in any imaginable way. Oh, and I’m past that point now too. :p

My god the world needs people like your wife. Man. Tell her that I said she’s amazing.

Umm, we’re talking about electric trucks here, sweetheart. They don’t guzzle gas.

Damn, his kid is a writer too?

Eh, he’s a millionaire. Must be something to it. He’s 68 now and has started selling his stuff off. The new owners have been calling me for months because I’m the only person who knows how to deal with it other than him.

He truly is a genius. Like anyone else, he has his flaws, but I’m telling you, he’s brilliant and his work is brilliant.

In all of the years he has ran his businesses he never called an outsider in. He learned to program machines that people are paid hundreds of dollars an hour to program and repair despite being functionally illiterate. I’d say there’s virtue in his work.

On top of all of that, has taken care of his employees. He isn’t perfect, but if someone works for him and their car breaks down, it gets repaired on his account. If it can’t be repaired, he goes to a car auction and buys them a car on his own time after inspecting it from top to bottom to make sure it’s good enough.

I’ve had my problems with him AND his work over the years, but overall I definitely think that his skill is the virtue that I think it is. I envy him, in a positive way.

Don’t work when you smoke weed.

I rarely smoke it (haven’t in at least 4 years), but when I do and sex happens, I can’t breathe and I end up totally stopped up for at least an hour.

I have allergies too though.

Me too. Allergies can kiss my nuts. I get a break like once every 6 months or so.

Lucky you. It’s my goddamn chair and door haha.

You’re just lucky. I too feel like I’ve lived through multiple lifetimes. They all went by in a flash.

I’ve been hard on my body and mind though. I’m a dumb hillbilly who started having kids when I was 16. I spent a decade as a functional heroin addict. Functional because I have family that gave a damn about me and I’m so antisocial that I had the discipline to have a week’s supply and not burn through it because the thought of dealing with people was enough to make me pause (mostly). Otherwise I would have been in the gutter with everyone else.

I’ve been through the wringer. Maybe that’s part of it. I don’t know.

Life is funny.

It’s so wild to me that Nirvana is old, that I’m old.

I heard the older folks say that I would wake up and be old one day and it would feel like barely any time has passed. “Young people will treat you like a dinosaur and you’ll still think you’re 25.”

I just can’t believe it.

Time has slipped through my fingers. Everything I put off a week ago was actually thousands of years ago now.

30-40 has been a month or so.